self esteem or confidence. most people have it and others dont. it just doesnt mean your cocky or not, or you are smart or not, or what you thnk about yourself. it does indeed tie in with those 3 but it also has somethng to do with your performance in whatever you do, motivation and drive, your emotions etc. its what you are and what you do. and not ALL basis of your self esteem are equally balanced. they're different intervals. you may thnk ur the shit but your motivation is at an all time low. you may be smart as hell but you are ashamed of your looks. it varies, but thats life.. when one is low you work on it until it becomes satisfactory..then work on somethng else.. then somethng else until your intervals are high enough that YOU yourself is satisfied. but what happens when one after another drops rapidly allowing you no time to fix them? what do you do then? any suggestions? shit, some drink, do drugs, run away, cry etc. whatever temporarily gives them a false high to cope. or you form an invisible wall around you to keep EVERYTHING out. some even do what the outsiders say. Shut up and do somethng about it. We do, but it is continuous raining blows pushing you back down before you get a chance to stand up. A person can only take so much before they end up in a state of confusion, give up, or develop an ice cold heart. They lose themselves.. and if you can't find ursself you lose everythng slowly.
There's no other way to fixx it. So I cope. My high is my mini me, but that's slowly leaving me. God, I ask for your forgiveness and assistance.
